she obviously did become atheist and could see the mythology of god and jesus for what it was

commensurately she must have become disillusioned about people and realised the real poor was herself

so she was caught circumstantially in extreme disjunction

yet she survived and continued

i think thats what her rules are about

like the man writing on the wall to heaven i might bemoan thats its my lot to live by them

but it is my lot and my brain is shaped for them and they are shaped for me

the measure of age is not the measure of youth


speak as little as possible about yourself

keep busy with your own affairs and not those of others

avoid curiosity

do not interfere in the affairs of others

accept small irritations with good humor

do not dwell on the faults of others

accept censures even if unmerited

give in to the will of others

accept insults and injuries

accept contempt, being forgotten and disregarded

accept injuries and insults

be courteous and delicate even when provoked by someone

do not seek to be admired and loved

do not protect yourself behind your own dignity

give in, in discussions, even when you are right

always choose the more difficult task